Brynn's Birth

In May of last year we found out I was pregnant with our beautiful little girl Brynn. Daniel nor I saw me being pregnant that soon, but God had his hand in it for sure. A month prior, Daniel and I began making a list of the things we wanted to pray for specifically. One of those things being for God to show us when we should try to have children. We both knew we wanted to add to our family we just weren't sure when that time would be. No need to go into our private life too much, but it truly was a miracle. I felt overwhelmed with certain aspects of our life immediately such as where we would live. Daniel and I really didnt want to start a family in Myrtle Beach nor did we want to be living the home we were renting due to the awful neighborhood. So we added that to our prayer list knowing that God would provide and show us the way.

 The day I found out I was pregnant I had a gut feeling it was going to be a girl. Weird I know, but God gives me funny feelings about things. People may question God being able to speak to people but I know for a fact that when you have the spirit living inside of you...HE SPEAKS! Sometimes in subtle ways and other times it is LOUD and CLEAR. God had been preparing me to be a mother. Some people dream of having big careers where they makes a lot of money, but my dream was to be the mother that I never had one day. All that I have ever been through was not in vain because it has truly made me who I am today. If you know me personally then you know what it meant to me to have Brynn. My own daughter...with the man I love...who adores me. That is a story for another day if you don't already know. 

 The beginning of my pregnancy was not easy. I felt sick all the time, exhausted, and could barely function at times. I also began to wonder and question if Daniel and I were really ready to have a family. God kept telling me that we were ready and that He wouldn't give us anything we couldn't handle. When I say that I love my husband and think he is wonderful...I actually mean that. I dont say that for show or for people to think we have some perfect relationship because thats the farthest thing from the truth. But all that we have been through together and how far we have come amazes me every day. The truest of loves and best friends get through that stuff. I'm pretty sure while I felt so sick all the time it was affecting my husband as well, but you wouldn't ever know it because his focus was me. I saw this man in the most selfless light. He did it all when I couldnt do it...the cooking, the cleaning, the washing clothes, etc.

 The second trimester arrived and I felt like a new woman. My energy was up. Daniel and I were both getting so excited. We officially found out it was a girl. She already had a name that we had picked out long before we were even married...Brynn Elizabeth. Daniel and I felt overwhelmed with the love and support from our family and friends. We went from having absolutely nothing for our little girl...to little by little all that we needed kept pouring in. Another answered prayer...how will we afford all that we need? I'm sure God was laughing at us by now...like really? I got this children. I will provide and she will have all that she needs. And when you pray...pray hard and pray with others. There is strength in multiple people praying for the same thing. God will show out and give you the unexpected. And while your at it...Thank Him already for his blessings. I am learning that this shows Him your faith.

 Alright, so the third trimester arrives. This was a repeat of the first...except much worse. I am pretty sure I experienced every pregnancy symptom except for swollen feet. I feel sure my husband may have wanted to run away from me some days. This was the toughest time and my pain continued to get worse until I had to step away from work a month before I delivered. Sitting at home and not working was really hard for me and I got bored a lot. I wasn't able to sleep well either, so add all of that up and I wasn't too pleasant to be around sometimes. But still, Daniel continued to show up in the most selfless ways. To say I was spoiled daily would be an understatement. He was so supportive throughout this whole thing.

 Saturday February 9th Daniel and I ordered out from Outback because my stomach was killing me. He kept asking me if we should go to the hospital and I kept saying "no" because I didn't think they would do anything for me and I would just have to suffer through the pain. Sunday morning the pain just continued to get worse and I finally couldn't take it anymore so we headed to the hospital. Once we arrived and got checked in one of the nurses checked me out and said "oh, im so sorry your in pain and there is nothing we can do for you". I said "aren't you going to hook me up to the monitor to see if im contracting because i know that I am". She proceeded to doubt me again, but hooked me up to the monitor anyway. Sure enough...I was having contractions 4-5 minutes apart. She called the doctor and in she came not even 15 minutes later. Next thing I know I'm being wheeled into to have a c-section. I was very nervous, but I had the best doctor and nurses surrounding me in that room (not the nurse I started out with that night...thank goodness). It was such an amazing day despite all the pain I experienced in the beginning. You completely forget about all that once your child is born into this world. As I arrived to my room, Brynn was coming in at the same time and I could not wait to hold her because I had to wait in recovery for almost 2 hours. I just began crying tears of joy the moment I held Brynn. I have never in my life felt so much joy and love. My heart just wanted to explode.